It’s ok to be exhausted. Its ok to want something so bad that whether it happens or it doesn’t, by the time the result presents itself, you are so tired your body just wants to shut down.
It takes a lot of energy to “want” something badly. It is using all of the energy within you to attempt to manifest it, but, if you don’t believe it without a doubt, then, do not be surprised if some sort of heartbreak is involved.
What that means is that the heartbreak should serve as a lesson for you to understand just how much more training you need. Don’t let the heartbreaks slow you down, instead, let them fuel your hunger and passions for making things happen.