I write because it is the only thing that can entertain me at all times. Socializing with others that can only be redundant in the topics they choose to discuss is something I am learning to hate more and more. Not that I have ever loved it, but because hate is a word that you all respect. Anyway, I try my hardest to be sociable and avoid becoming asocial, but it gets harder and harder.
They say that if we are constantly finding ourselves in scenarios and situations that we don’t want to be in, that we should look into changing the people we are surrounding ourselves by. But, what happens when change catches you with even worse people?
Maybe what I want does not exist. I thought it wasn’t much. I really thought it would be simple to meet people that love to discuss ideas rather than people who just want to talk about the vacation that they just went on—as if I could give two shits. I want to discuss ideas and theories. I want to talk about what is happening around the world right now, at the very least.
How about this: show me songs and lyrics that I may have never heard, but that are also exceptionally good. Don’t talk to me about the songs and dances that are the latest social trend or craze. Talk to me about a chord progression that is deliciously hypnotizing instead. Don’t talk to me about the latest opinion piece on Refinery 29 about why brunch in LA is so much better than brunching in NYC.. No. Instead, talk to me about the latest great read that you haven’t been able to put down, pulling the book out on every train ride the moment you step through the closing doors. The kind of book that you keep a kindle version to on your smartphone, just in case.
I guess I see why some people change their friends more than others. I mean, I still can kick it with the friends I have that do all of these things I don’t want to be around. But, less and less, I find myself searching for something more from everyone around me. I can’t be around someone who has their smartphones in front of them, bouncing from device to device to answer people, favor tweets, double tap their screens or send out an email or text. I can’t hang with the girl that wants to talk about why she is so good at what she does, all the time.
I have a hunger and a passion for learning and if I can’t get these things from people, then I know I can always rely on my addiction to writing, which stems from my addiction to reading for it.