Non Est Cochleari

I have been blessed with the ability to love and the ability to write. I have been blessed with the ability to see that this world is literally what we make it. I have been blessed with a mind that is different than most others. I have been blessed with life in a time when anyone rarely knows how to live. 

Hec realized last week that we may in fact be living in a construct. That our very own bodies are full of programs made to sustain themselves like everything else in nature.. or maybe, it was my idea about the inside of our own bodies, but he brought up nature and how things are fully functional on their own, left to make their own choices and way in this world. I noticed last night that we could be A.I. in it’s highest form, which is to create

The scientist seldom knows contemporaneous reward: it is enough to possess the joy of creative service.—Autobiography Of A Yogi

Waking up this morning the construct gave me something that I desired, and although I was pleased to receive it, I realized that it was me who actually created the event that came to me and occurred. That kind of power is the realest power ever known to anyone—the ability to command this construct and bend it any which way you desire, at any given moment in time. 

Spoon boy: Do not try and bend the spoon. That’s impossible. Instead only try to realize the truth.

Neo: What truth?

Spoon boy: There is no spoon.

Neo: There is no spoon?

Spoon boy: Then you’ll see that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.

Manipulating the construct isn’t about focusing on an object and trying to change it. The object doesn’t exist, therefore you cannot change it, you must change yourself. 

Cyrus Pavel. 

Vata, Pitta, Kapha.

I’ve learned that if I don’t mediate enough my mind goes off into tangents and quadrants that are completely irrelevant. I guess this is what most peoples minds do all the time; they go off and get kept busy by learned habits of worrying about the shit that is most irrelevant to their own lives. I guess that in-between all that worrying they tend to overlook the stuff that in the long run is the stuff that only really ever does end up mattering. 

We must learn to stay  f o c u s e d  on the things that really matter most in life. Notice that I did not write/say “the things that matter most to us in life” because for us, things may not make the sense that they need to yet in order for this to be productive. 

Obviously, if you want to live then you care about such things. Our minds are the biggest key into longer lasting lives, so it is only right that I tell you about these things that I have learned to be true. They provide the realest results, and so far, the only answers. 

Meditate.

“Any man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl is simply not giving the kiss the attention it deserves.”
—  Albert Einstein 1949
“Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you.”
—  Walt Whitman

il Viaggio.

When I woke up I realized that I was no longer in the life I had just lived, and then I realized that the life I had known was simply another journey. 

I got myself up, but I could not see my legs, arms, or the rest of my body, in fact, all I could see was an endless room of other electricity made incubators going all sorts of ways filled with a single light in each and everyone of them. I had seen this type of built-out before. 

Memories of everything I had seen in that previous journey, on Earth, kept filling my mind. Photos flashing at light speeds. Suddenly, a powerful voice came from what seemed to be inside of me and filled up my mind. 

I woke up yet again, but this time I was back here, on earth, with all of you. 

Cyrus Pavel

To All The Girls I’ve Ever Loved Before:

I hope that you are ok. I hope that whoever you are with worships you the way that I still do. I hope that they make you feel more beautiful than I ever could, and above all, I hope they make you laugh way more than I ever did.

Cyrus Pavel

“I’ve learned that love is a term too loosely used these days. I’ve learned that when you find something you love, that it doesn’t matter how hard you try to hold onto it if it doesn’t want to be held on to. I’ve learned how to breathe on my own.”
— Cyrus Pavel

That High

They get mad at me when I write about you, but what will they matter to me when they are no longer around and a younger version takes their place. You knew that this would eventually happen, and as much shit as I would give you for continuously bringing it up it is now something that consumes parts of my daily thoughts. 

Asking ourselves questions about the things we want to know more about is how we learn. Asking ourselves questions about ourselves is how we grow. 

I’ll be candid with you because I know that you come here. There is someone that I care about profoundly, not because I like to care profoundly about just anyone, but simply because she makes me smile a lot, and laugh. Up until a few days ago I felt guilty about this happening to me. I felt that I didn’t give you enough time to recover or enough time to break out of your darkness, but I needed that high once again. 

Most people are addicted to something in this construct. Some, well, they are addicted to drugs, and then you have others that are addicted to sex, and then others that are addicted to alcohol, and then you have the pill poppers, and then you have the misery-lovers, and then you have the lovers who are only addicted to love above anything else. 

What if, before we got here, we were all in heaven hanging around and we all knew one another? And, what if, in heaven, we all got to decide who we would fall in love with when we came down? We got to choose the souls that we would love because we already knew that we could love them…

I know that you were a diversion. I know that you were part of this construct’s master plan to throw me off, but I also know that it could never do so because I am way too strong. I guess what I am saying there really is that you were not as strong as I thought you were, but that was not your fault—it was mine. 

Falling in love is the remedy to everything. Forgetting things that no loner exists is the answer I have been looking for. 

Cyrus Pavel

The Serenity of Silence

I don’t want to talk to you about cycles today because what’s really the point? You never listen, and this is exactly why you find yourself in the same exact predicament again. It could be four years later, or four months, it does not matter because it is a cycle. 

I don’t want to talk to you about setting your mind free because what is really the point? You always say that you want to free your mind, but then you go ahead and do ONLY the things you already know. 

I don’t feel like talking to you today about much because I am enjoying the sun on my face and the wind in my ears. I like not having to talk. The serenity of silence is a much appreciated luxury that I love indulging in. 

Cyrus Pavel

The life I live.

That moment when you cross the finish line is better than most moments people have ever had. It’s just like that moment when you hit a grand slam in a playoff game to win the championship, or when you score a touchdown in the final seconds to win a game. Many people on this planet will never know what that feels like, and yet here I am with an abundance of moments like these to relish in. 

I assume that this is the reason why I have been so grateful in my life, or at least part of the many reasons. 

This morning I woke up and thought, for a brief second, that if today was my day to go, I would go with no regrets. 

I have lived a very full life in comparison to most. Sure, I haven’t done many of the things that the elite and top 1% of the world have, but I have done and experienced so much that I feel truly blessed and genuinely fulfilled. 

I driven roads rarely seen in cars rarely touched. I have sailed on oceans and rivieras around the world in elusive yachts mentioned in myths. I have flown to destinations I’ve never even heard of to hang out and party with people I never even knew existed. I have loved some of the most beautiful women on the planet, only to find out that souls are more beautiful.

I have lived a great life, and I am grateful for the life that I still have left to live. I plan on being happy every single day in this life yet to come. I plan on waking up with a smile, all the time, and I plan on never ever feeling like I don’t want to be somewhere because if I do feel that way then I am not living the life that I want to live. 

Cyrus Pavel

“I don’t believe that we get old. I believe that only our routines do.”
— Cyrus Pavel

The kill.

When two energies that are attracted to one another meet for the first time, something happens. That something is determined by how these two meet. 

If two energies, attracted by one another meet under the spell of a third party that will not want them together, then these energies suffer the fate of maybe never seeing one another, in this lifetime, again. 

However, sometimes, the energies are so attracted to one another that it becomes inevitable to hold them back; that even if someone tries, they end up finding one another again, repeatedly. 

Sometimes these energies cannot stand life, in-the-moment, without the thought of one another. Days go by and feel like years until they both lose all reality and sense of time. 

Years go by, and it all just feels like a few albums played in-between instead of the countless days and hours and months that happened. 

I have been blessed in this lifetime to be able to receive every energy that has every intrigued me. Sometimes I have had to play the patient wolf, waiting in the distance until the time is right, and other times I have simply been able to walk away with the hunt in my mouth, spitting it out as I keep scouring these grand plains. 

They say that some hunters remember every single kill they have made in their lifetimes because every kill that they did make becomes a part of them, somehow. I used to recall all of mine, until I realized that whether you do or don’t, it doesn’t define a god damn thing. 

Cyrus Pavel